Life is Hope

hello people,
the last seven months have been the hardest for me, since getting out of the army. the dreams have come more often, there have been some really hard days, and i have lost all hope. Hope is such a hard thing to understand, one moment your powering through life seemingly at ease the next it has crumbled around you. what i have been struggling with the most is having purpose in life. after doing what i did in the army, i fee like i have done all that i can do. with live being so black and white while in the army, coming back into "normal" life has been so freaking hard. people dont live their lives with a sense of purpose most of the time. when your life is not on the line everything seems less important. i can only think in black and white, grey area has no place in my life.

day after day i just wanted to not wake up. i wanted to live for something i wanted that feeling of being alive. about three weeks ago that all came to ahead. a friend of mine totally called me out for the way i was living. B. is one of the few people in my life that i know will alway shoot straight with me. the very next day the biggest thing to happen in my life so far came to be. and wow i did not see it coming, it was God saying, "hi, now you have something to live for! Now get your act together!"

yesterday i went to church. first time in a couple of weeks, and it was the right time and right message for me. Keeping Hope Alive was the title of the message.
couple things i got out of it...
-Our outlook skews our view of what God has for us. If we could set our outlook aside and see His veiw for us, we would not lose hope.
-Do i use "however" as an excuse to not walk in the will of God?
-God's path/vision for my life WILL be filled with giants. I have to press into God so that i can fight these battles.

i am now choosing to walk in what God has for me. even when its hard to fight those battles.

When did being a Man become a bad thing?

so after two months im writing a book. yes who would have thought that one day i would write a book? i have been struck hard by the fact the we are living in a world were being a MAN means to live my life as i see fit. by fulfilling my desires, by turning my back on all thing that would mean me taking a risk, and by lowering the standards of what it is to lead. so here is the intro to my book let me know what you think.

The Start of Something New

A guide for the Christian man to become Real Men

 Chapter 1:

Who have we become?

Where do we start? With each passing day I look at the church, I have to wonder how we have fallen so far. With each day young woman are being “lead” by boys who have not a single leadership skill in their bones, who CHOOSE not to lead, live at home at the age of 30, don’t have jobs, and are forcing truly awesome women of God lower their own standards just to find a boy.

Why are we doing this? How can we truly call ourselves sons of the Father if we have not chosen to look to the Bible and see the example of what a Godly MAN is to be? I want to take you to a place of Honor. Lets go and look at the truly Manly Men of the Bible. Men that never held back, men that stepped out in faith and led not only their families but also nations. Are we do let our men grow up to be come boys or men. Too often, we excuse their actions with this statement, “boys will be boys”. By not setting a standard young men are led to believe that letting the wind control there lives is some how ok. Stop and ask yourself, “When was the last time I acted out on faith? When was the last time I that I chose to lead the relationship?” If you’re single, why are you single? What is stopping you from taking a risk and pursuing a woman?

It’s understandable to see why we have come to a place where young men don’t have an idea of how to act. Each day we see on TV and in life nothing but self-gratification.

Let us begin to live out our lives with more of God and less of us. Has He not set out before us examples of truly Godly men? Did each of them struggle, yes? But if we do not take the time to see the heart of God then we will never know the love that He has for us or the life that He wants us to have. We must choose to say no to want we want. And must say Yes to what He has for us.

Lets start out with what it takes to be a real man. Here is a simple list of things that should be evident in every mans life.

-God fearing

-Leadership

-Protector

-Lover

-Provider

-Father

We as men need to take account of our lives, me included to know if we are doing all that we can to become these. Each one of these are attributes that we should/must be striving to understand and become so that we may live the life that God has set out before us. So let us dig into what each of these are and how we can strive in our everyday lives to become more Christ like. Over the next six chapters we are going to dig deep into each one of these and really find out who God has shown us has lived up to each of these. There is will be a lot of questions that we all need to ask ourselves, myself included. So get ready for the ride of your life and lets be honest and open with who we have let ourselves become. 

let me know what you think. and ladies i wanna hear from you. what erks you about "boys"? how are we not showing you that we are Men and want to lead you into a relationship that has purpose? 

I Do What I Can

Lt Harris
"I Do What I Can"

for Noah i hold on to hope

for the man he was

for the life he left behind

he changed everyone 

he broke past the limits and held us up

he knew what was to come

he chose to walk in the light

he chose to walk with Christ

forever i will look back at my time with him

i count those days as blessed

he lead the leaderless 

he commanded the best to come out of us all

Noah i miss you each day

Noah you drive me better my life

Noah your dream and life live on through me

Noah you've always been with me

i know your watching out for us all

the greatest guardian angel a person could have

i know your stand with me in the dark and in the light

the greatest man to walk the earth has been gone for almost 6 years

the emptiness is still there in my heart

each year, each month, each day, each hour, each minute, each second 

you are missed for you are gone 

we hold on to the memory of your love

we know you've gone to a better place

you answered your Father's call home

so to Noah i raise up each day

for Noah i live a life out loud

for Noah i will always press forward

for Noah i choose to take that "left"

for Noah i choose to face the enemy

to the greatest man ive ever known 

1st Lt Noah Harris you are missed 

Gods ultimate beauty

the drive up clear skies and sunshining

The sun come to bless us.

it was sunday, and it was time to hit up Mt. Baker for some great snowboarding. Got up early, hit the road, met up with some friends and by 830am we were in the parking lot ready to shred. the sheer beauty of the Mt was unreal. 67'' had fallan the seven days leading up to us going up on sunday. the four of us were ready to just have as much fun as we could!

J hitting it

M and J getting ready

Me backside grab

J J loves to try

M getting that front side air

as you can see we had fun! just a Great day to be outside and on the slopes! 

N. Cascades the big kids snow heaven

A Trip back Home Co

Some of the lift tickets

This is late in coming, but i do want to write about my trip home. after NM, i met up with friends in Denver, Co. it was a nice drive, southern Co is totally awesome, and a speed limit of 75 is also nice. we spent the night waxing boards and getting ready for the week that was ahead of us.

Lunch was great!

early the next morning we headed up to Winter Park. the drive was a little hairy, but we made it and we were ready to hit the slopes. Winter Park was a fun day, even if at the end of the day we did get stuck on the far side and had to walk for what seemed like forever. we then headed to the condo that we had for four days, in Sliverthorne, Co.

it was the coolest condo, totally a great deal and a great place. the next day we headed out to Copper Mt for the first of three days there. we had been a little worried about the weather the week leading up to us going up there it had been -15* to -20* everyday. we woke up to 23* and clear skies! i cant tell you how wonderful it was to be on the slopes for the third day in a row. the peace i feel while riding is out of this world. just God and i, talking and exploring His creation.

The Top of Copper Mt

the rest of the week was much of the same but with each day getting a little warmer. it was wonderful! on the last day S. and i went to the very top of the Mt. and wow 12,000 feet was wonderful!

Me at the Top

S. at the Top
 

i had so much fun. and the rest of the drive home was great. i stopped in Spokane to see my little brother. and by the Feb 2 i was at home with the family. ready for the next path i am to take.

Angle Fire

Angel Fire

Today was wonderful! wow woke put to clear skies and cold weather. I was at the chair lift at 8:45 ready for first chair. i went on a run or two and then took a seat to fix the board and this is was the view!! awesome seems like it falls short. i had a great first day of the season. it was wonderful, joyful, and totally worth the 3 hour detour. after a great day i made my way up to Denver, Co. i met up with another SM from Dallas. we are playing to hit up Winter Park tomorrow, and then four days at Copper Mt!!! i need this time away from the stress of work. time for me. and i just want to keep pushing my life into the right direction. the new normal is a joyful normal. being on the slopes today was like breathing for the first time all winter. my passion really is snowboarding.

Heading home

It's 12:30am. I was on the road for 11 hours. Left Texas headed for Denver. Stopped to see a friend in Amerillo, TX. It was a good break and a great talk. My last good-bye for Texas. As I crossed the state line into New Mexico I had tears welling up in my eyes. Oh the fun I've had in my year in Dallas/Shreveport. Met so many good people. Had many late night talks and early morning thoughts. As I lay here in my car it's 19* outside and I feel at home in the cold. I took a u-turn in norther NM to hit the slopes a day early. And then drive on to Denver tomorrow.

What tomorrow bring with it I'm sure it will be fun. A road trip. Just me and my thoughts. Only planning the next gas stop. I have found a new normal. I'm coming to find a new me. Q better me. One that truly live in the moment. Never worrying about tomorrow just enjoying what He has given me. How He has blessed me with each breath. It's getting colder and I love it. I'm going to bundle up and fall asleep and awake to a new day.


Joy has returned to my soul.
Finding an even me is where I am today.
Know He is watching.
For joy always comes in the morning just make sure to find it every time u wake up.